no driving for me

[Hank's mom]

Hi All -

I'm posting this elsewhere, Peg in Dec, on the board - I gave up my license yesterday at last. Hate it, cried, tried to trouble shoot but kept getting more upset as I went, so took an Adivan (being prescribed again for this type of panic attack) and went t bed early.

I know I can't really be threatened about the driving, but the doc made a couple of good points that I have been working too hard to let out - if I get in a crash, no insurance will carry the costs because I am aware of my ammonia - if I do or don't hurt someone, I will be charged by the police - killing someone, albeit accidently, would be nothing short of vehicular homicide, and the doc, though he respects doctor/patient priviledge, will have to try to convince me to stop, and if he fails, really should report me for being a danger to myself and others.

I get it. I know it won't necessarily happen to me that way, but then again, it could. My meds can only be tweaked so much. A friend just got slammed by his ammonia so bad, he thought it was politics -1964 he was living over, which is weird, he was born in 64. Other than that he was totally lost. Oh well, I reason that if my friend was drunk, I would take their car keys, and ammonia is pretty much the same.

I'll let you know what I come up with as a plan - but the doc is right and I just have to find ways to deal. Right now I am morning this part of my life gone for the time being, throw myself into my art and writing, and slowly accept and adjust.

I hope everyone is doing well and your xmas plans, though economically altered, are coming together. Stockings will be here and I may have the kids make the feast with me.

Love you all,
Susie

[MissyMouse]

Awwwwwww.... Susie, I'm so sorry but so proud of you for making the right decision.   Having worked in the personal injury field for so long, you doctor is absolutely right about the insurance issues involved.

Hugs,

Mouse

[DougV]

Susie,

I'm sorry.  I hope when it comes my time to do the same that I am half as philosophical about it as you are. 

As is all I can think of is......

Hep sucks.

Doug

[Pancho and Lefty]

Susie,

This really does suck. I don't look forward to having to deal with not driving. . . although we all do at some point.

I guess the argument that would cause me to accept the inevitable is the danger of harming others. I hope I'll accept that my freedom ends where their safety begins.

I'm sure you'll make the best choices.

Max

 

[willy]

Awww Susie..... that had to be so hard.

I myself find it hard to believe and find myself justifying, rationalizing a little as well.

How can someone who writes and reasons as eloquently as you just did, be impaired? 

I understand it,....and I also understand how one would hang on for as long as one could. 
I also understand that as a reasoning and clear person you would also arrive at the same decision as you did.

My heart still goes out to you.

I guess that now you have to start thinking about plan B.  Sometimes these unplanned course changes can bring about some new changes that could potentially be good. 

I hope it all gets sorted out.  It could be more togetherness at Christmas.

Willy

[DougV]

I've had some time to reflect on this.....

That would mean my wife would drive me everywhere?

Please, where's my gun, I'm ending it now.........

Doug

[dusty567]

Susie!

So sorry to hear about this.  It had to be sooooooo hard to give up that freedom.  I don't like to drive that much, but know if I couldn't I would miss it horribly.  You are so very wise and compassionate toward others to do this on your own.

God Bless,
Cathy

[negative1]

So sorry to hear that. It is the right thuing though.

Hang in there Susie

[robin]

Sorry that it happened but good for you for being a good person and realizing the risk not only to yourself but to other's. I never "got" it...I did but I think I would have still tried to drive if someone else had not taken my keys. You made the right decision.

Keep your spirits high...robin

[Hank's mom]

Hi All -

Thanks for your support and understanding - I don't know that I'd be such a good citizen if my doc hadn't put things in the right perspective - not that the others hadn't tried - I just thought I was master of more than I can be.

Today, I had a couple of "so this is what it's going to be like..."s, I was going to go to a reading, took a nap, didn't feel so hot, so I told my daughter not to worry, take her time, I wasn't going anywhere. But, then I did feel better with plenty of time to spare and had given away my ride. Then, when we were going to go, I was going to pick up some food for Hank - he's still hungry and is starting to glare at me when I give him another bone. This is going to stink - but hey, it's 27 degrees, I'm warm, there's food in the frig, I can shower and my art and you are still here, so...

I'm not entirely an every cloud has a silver lining kind of gal, but really, I am better off than so many, so I'm going to stop my whining now.

Susie

[Jazzdenova]

I 've been working for years to get a chauffer to drive me any where... instead of me being the chauffer for everyone else. It is your time sit back and enjoy it. And remember it is not a tip when you tell them how to drive... : )

[Hank's mom]

Hey Jazz -

Thanx for your special type of humor. Does that driving thing apply to my kids - that's gonna be a tough one.

Susie

[Pancho and Lefty]

Susie Q,

Damit all, I wish I had some jokes about this. Life is change. . . . and there's no doubt about that.

Everyone here supports you. . . and would give you a lift if you were in the neighborhood. 

take care

[Betty W.]

Susie, could you drive a golf cart or a 4-wheeler ? Would that get you to the store?

Anyway, just a thought !!

Love you bunches, Betty

[Hank's mom]

Oh dear Betty -

I actually have Dad's scooter in the basement - problem is I travel between 5 and 50 miles to do most things - a lot of advance planning there.

I asked my husband about teaching me to ride a nice, old but smart pony that would get me there and be better than I at bringing me home. Or, a horse that knows the way to carry the sleigh... but that would mean praying for snow.

I love you for thinking of me and just in general,
Susie