Was someone looking over my shoulder?

About three weeks ago, feeling totally overwhelmed and emotionally drained, I spent over an hour typing a topic I entitled "Caregiver Crack-Up".

After re-reading it, I felt somewhat ashamed of myself. It kinda read like a "woe is me, does anyone want to join me in my pity party?". I guess I just needed to vent a bit. Also, I was very curious how other caregivers/spouses/partners were dealing with this.

The problem was, I had no idea what category to post it in, so I puffed out my chest, deleted it, and went about my day.

Yesterday, my husband logged in for the first time in weeks (although I do it alot when he is sleeping). He had taken shot #14 on Friday and the side affects have really been getting to him. I was so pleased to see that he was on here reading and when I looked over his shoulder and saw the new forum, I was surprised and pleased; it made me feel like someone had been reading over mine just a few short weeks ago!

My thanks to those of you who were instrumental in getting this particular forum up and going. I have been longing to exchange thoughts and ideas with other caregivers and how they cope.

The last few weeks have been really rough on my husband. He has had days where he thought he might not be able to take this medication any longer. His viral load started out at 38,000,000 and last week's appointment was going to determine if he was going to be able to continue it from a medical standpoint. It was the first doctor's appointment I missed since he was diagnosed so I was a bundle of nerves the entire day. He called me as soon as he left the doctor's office. His viral load is down to 831,000 (YIPPEE!).

This was wonderful news and certainly the encouragement he needed to get through the next 12 weeks. I am so thankful.

Now that my eyes are blurry from the tears, I must go and get ready for my grand entrance into the rest of the world.

Thanks again for creating another place to share. I hope each and every one of you has an amazing day!

Goo