Sanity of Sah!

[Sah]

Sanity of Sah is a Journey by a person, on 48wks of Pegasys/Ribavirin. I've added two other poems, odes, etc....previously posted to keep a log. What's happen in the mental side area is of importance for me to understand, maybe! Maybe not understand! It just doen't matter, as long as I keep on the goal......CURE!

"DEALING" WITH MENTAL SIDES!

P.O.
Human
Off
Go
Friends and Foe
Parinoia knocking
on the screen door
Smoked transparency

Travel the mind
flushing blocked
poison.
Searching wanderlessly
glowing, tear filled heart and mind
dry eyes.

Peace a glimpse
Content distance
a fry
waiting for release.
Dependant upon
a Creators design
One not seen,
the eye, the ears, the sense, drown
thy mouth.
Or did we!

Death and Beyond, Who am I,
the privy, to ones mind?!

A summers grasp.
calming in a breeze,
out the inside.
Buried winters,
season awakening,
down the mind.

Surface flowers
bloom
Sring sprung
hoping sky,
faith fuel
naked to the eye,
fulfilling grace

Stange Places


Racing
heart?!

Well groomed
CREATOR,
Hell and Earth
Hope for heaven
A quiet, peaceful, selfish place,
seach of faith.

Arms stretced,
2000 yr old vines
Constanlty prune,
Test of time
Acid testing gold.
Never grown old.

Fruit
Solid
as one be
In the act of love.


Sah/Reprinted June 25th, 2004

[Sah]

Touching Life  
 
The breeze is crisp  
The trees colourful  
The wild gathering  
a winters stock.  
 
The light of day is late  
The shadow of night is early  
Resting becoming  
A cycle  
turned again.  
 
An awakening feeling  
clearing the way for stillness  
Another season dawning  
new beginings.  
 
Life  
The wilderness springs  
untouched territory  
Just as being human  
coming to know oneself.  
 
What joy in dreaming!  
 
By Sah/Reprinted June 24th, 2004  
 

[Sah]

TODAYS PAST REALITY!

Not hurting self, not hurting others. struggling with tx. and there's still life.

Read about the anxiety, Read about stuff, getting by, post by, good people in the past, Read here today.  reserved to this a thought.

An explosion off, in a thee, it use to happen this sense of unwellness, for a couple of days and now since three to four weeks, it is what seems like an eternity. Been mumbling, not being. TX.

Children, wife, struggling with tx, standing, staying strong. All the people, worse off, have good courage, reality; no sound, no words, the abyss is dwelling, actually, scared. Struggled taking injection friday the end, 170 hr's, pills 24/7. Cried like a baby , Come to know, moment only to well, now, in no sound, no words, the abyss, fingers hitting a key board, out of a quiet desperation, a pain with no face, a pain that is becoming powerful and scary . Know, know that it's,showing up is important... Shot till do the same thing
over again.

Destroyed, artworks, sketches of like, yesterday a thief has sneaked out. No pain, fighting tears, calming down the wind.  

Going about, slaying dragons. Not just , mutating, replecating, epedemic, crafty, buggers running halls. In me..Eating, senses, common, mind, shame, iota of  being.  

By Sah/Revised and reprinted JUne 25th,2004

[Sah]

PARABLE OF SCARS

around the corner, down the street
up the alley, next door, down the lane
behind closed doors

the eerie sense of a casket door
tumble, tumble the wee people fall
yelling comes to the mind
not visible or audio
to no-one at'all

the mind of fear
evades the soul
from moment to moment
shuffled by the scruff  
of a neck
rebuked of the untold  
revealed

strangers stop, seeming to collude

a cold sweat, awakens a dream
a swing of a bat
crack, crash
a person lies
flat on their sides

a passerby quips
"uncovered covert lie"

Sah Copywrited 07/04/04


CAUGHT

Tired o'l soles

Traveling, the same
mile after mile
slipping and sliding

On the up and down
Driven, high winds and rain
tossed side to side

Then
all of a sudden!

Looking lean
Trapped and clean

Gently grilled
Served with greens and fries

Energy revived

Fish

A healthy dieing!

Sah Copywrited 07/04/04

MY ROCK

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not
be in want.

He makes me lie down in green
pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.

He guides me in the paths of righteousness
for his name sake.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow
of death.

I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and staff,
they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.

You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

Surely goodness and love, will follow
me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.

Psalm 23  NIV

I am deeply passioned ,the place of refuge that is offered in LOVE!  

[Sah]

 Parting of Sea's

In many ways, the time comes along
when paths no longer intertwine.
Laughter and tears are moments.
Sharing fades away, embracing of new beginings.
Autonomy, moving brothers and sisters along.

Pastures can join many close
or they are hectres apart.
Butterflies itch the tummy
with tickles of joy and even sometimes fear.
Sadness for loss
becomes an experience to behold,
for growth provides  
opportunity,
to again share our lives.

Tear drops struggle to the top
flowing to the surface
glistening the eyes.
Standing brave we do
acting in love.
With hope and faith on each side.
Waiting for paths
to once again  
cross paths.

Often one never know  
when the straightening will dawn.
When all of a sudden
there we stand
hand in hand.
Refreshing a lost love
arriving in a breeze
shining from the lamp of life.
Sparking calm in a smile  
igniting passion in hearts.

On we travel  
in search
of peace  
in the place.
Creation has set aside
as water to the wild
waiting to quench our thirst.

Sah Copywrited 07/04/04

[Sah]

Serpent

Hovering beneath
dark covered clouds.

Smelling stench
knowing
echoe's
raised head, an  
enemy's breath,
regret.

Blistful sores
erupting
headaches,
fear,
anything new.
Showings on,  
when it  
decides.

A mind,  
wading in water.

Coasting effects
170 hr's  
post
injection,
running,
take no prisoners,  
course.

Can't stay still
wanting  
to turn off,
rumbling body and  
mind.
Puddle,  
Muddy the puddle,
sweat, tears drowning
poisioning
night.
Unbreakable will,
being destroyed.

Slaying serpents,
relatives each one.
Gaining Strength,
replicating, mutating
darkness's
Knight's.

A battle to end,
delicate souls,
sacrifice.


good
Fight,
other
than self.

Life suffice's.......
when
east reaches west!

Sah Copywrited 07/04/04

[Sah]

 Sanity of Sah!


"DEALING" WITH MENTAL SIDES!

P.O.
Human
Off
Go
Friends and Foe
Parinoia knocking
on the screen door
Smoked transparency

Travel the mind
flushing blocked
poison.
Searching wanderlessly
glowing, tear filled heart and mind
dry eyes.

Peace a glimpse
Content distance
a fry
waiting for release.
Dependant upon
a Creators design
One not seen,
the eye, the ears, the sense, drown
thy mouth.
Or did we!

Death and Beyond, Who am I,  
the privy, to ones mind?!

A summers grasp.
calming in a breeze,
out the inside.
Buried winters,
season awakening,
down the mind.

Surface flowers  
bloom
Sring sprung
hoping sky,
faith fuel
naked to the eye,
fulfilling grace

Stange Places


Racing  
heart?!

Well groomed
CREATOR,
Hell and Earth
Hope for heaven
A quiet, peaceful, selfish place,
seach of faith.

Arms stretced,
2000 yr old vines
Constanlty prune,
Test of time
Acid testing gold.
Never grown old.

Fruit
Solid
as one be
In the act of love.


Sah Copywrited July 04, 2004