The Final Leg

[joyce1]

Hi all,
       It's been sometime since I've been on here alot has gone on since then some good some bad.
      But I can say that my man is on his final leg of this TX, his last PCR at 24 weeks says he was undetectable which is great news but I still worry that this ugly dragon might rear it's ugly head after the Tx is over I know I need to think positive.
      Sometimes I look at my man and I can see what this Tx has done to him, he's not the same man he was before finding out he has HCV it has turned our world upside down, even though there are times where it's great and everything is going fine then he'll change at a drop of a hat one minute he's in a great mood then BAM!! he gets angry and to what I don't know. I have been with him thru this whole thing the good and the bad, even thought there were times when  I just wanted to just say the H*** with it and just go but I still stuck it out and held on I kept telling myself it's the Tx talking but dang there are times when I just can't keep my mouth shut!!
    He's on the anti'D's and I can't really see the big difference wheither he's on it or not he's still moody and enrages at a drop of a hat.
   But i guess the bright side is just around the corner just 6 more weeks and he's taken the last shot and the last pills god willing for the last time ever.
   Christmas is just around the corner so ''MERRY CHRISTMAS''  to everyone!!
   Thanks for letting me vent I guess I've had this bottled up inside forever now and still don't know how to voice everything I feel about this dragon.
Joyce1

[zoodoo]

Hi Joyce,

Congrats on your man being almost through with tx, and being undectable.   This whole tx is about waiting...waiting for the 12 week PCR, waiting for tx to be over, waiting for the post-tx PCR.  It can drive you nuts!  

This treatment takes its toll on the whole family, not just the patient.  Kudos to you for hanging in there.

My husband finished 3 months ago (still undectable at 3-months post-tx PCR  ), and although he's feeling a lot better physically, the depression hasn't subsided that much (he's prone to depression anyway), and our relationship still hasn't recovered.  I guess I was lucky, in that my husband didn't have temper flare ups, but depression is no picnic to live with.

You tell yourself that its just the treatment thats making them so miserable, but on a subconscious level, it's impossible not to take it personally.  I mean, when your spouse tells you day after day that they have no interest in anything and nothing seems important, how do you not feel alone and rejected?  

Things have been better for the past couple of weeks, but for a while there we were fighting a lot more than we ever have.  Neither of us likes confrontation and tended to deal with things in other ways, but I think I reached my threshold while he was on treatment, and once he was off and starting to feel better, everything that I'd been feeling spilled over.  I guess I was holding off until I thought he could handle it a little better.

Hang in there, you're almost done!

-Brie

[willy]

Joyce, It's good to see you post.  It will soon be over.  Even when it's over, the drugs will s-l-o-w-l-y leave the system.  Even after the drugs are gone, some sides can remain.  Even after the sides are gone, the fear of return may still be present.  It's a long treatment, and it takes it's toll on the person doing the treatment as well as those that live with them.  

The good news is that the treatment has worked (so far) even after a few "bumps" getting started.  I hope that the worst is over (for both of you) and that when treatment ends things will begin to brighten.  Things are already looking pretty good; far better than 9 months ago.  What a long way you both have come.  

Take care,
best,
Willy