SNOWFLAKES THOUGHTS

[linda]

  winona...tell your talented and precious granddaughter that her words gave me goose bumps!!  how old is she?  thank you so very much for sharing!!  ~~linda~~

[DjTurtle]

Winona,
I agree with Linda! Great writing. I have a friend that does some poetry writing. I hope you don't mind that I sent her a copy of these. She loves reading new stuff. And, yes, how old is your granddaughter now? I am rotten at poetry, but I have this yearning to write a book. I want to write one for young readers. I just have to push my butt to do it. I used to write stories as a kid and loved it when the other kids looked forward to mine.

Maybe a story about a turtle?
DjTurtle aka Dawn

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[Snowflake]

Hi Ladies,

Thank you for your complements, i am very PROUD of her. She will be 14 yrs. old in acouple of months. I must say i felt quite saddened when i read her poem Magic and alittle happy. Knowing she feels that the free-ness of being a child is gone, but seeing she has good memories also. You know alot of things changed for her when she came into puberty. She became real secluded and i don't think she knew why she felt like she did. Her mom sent her to talk to a therapist, but i don't think it helped. It was somthing she just had to work thur and still dealing with. She is doing well now, but being a teenager is such a hard time to go thur. And i think these days it just gets harder with all the technology we have.
DJ, i don't mind that you shared her work with your friend. You should get started on that book! I think you would get a great joy out of it. And a turtle story would be right up your alley.

TAKE CARE
  Winona

[KatNyerHAT]

Hi all, just getting around to reading as many posts as I can.  I must say, Winona, talent runs in the family.  My granddaughter will be 14 on June 23 and her writing isn't as deep but still enjoys writing.  She'll more than likely go into journalism. 
DJ - you have such humor and wit, I think you'd do very well writing a children's book.
Hugs to all,
Kat

[Snowflake]

DEPRESSION

WHO KNOWS WHAT IT IS, IT COMES IT GOES
THE PINNED UP FEELINGS OF EMOTION SHOWS!

WHEN OTHERS ARE AROUND AGGRESSION COMES OUT
AND THEN ALL YOU WANT TO DO IS SHOUT!

THERE IS NO CONTROLLING IT, SO ALL YOU DO IS SIT
WITH FEELINGS BUILDING AND FEELING LIKE _ _ _ _!

WONDERING WHEN IT WILL GO AND WHY IT CAME
IT FEEDS OFF IT'S SELF, YOUR NOT TO BLAME!

BUT THAT DOESN'T STOP YOU FROM FEELING THE SHAME!!!

(((((AND SO IT GROWS, DEPPRESION WHO KNOW'S)))))

BY: OWNMC

[KatNyerHAT]

Winona,

Loved this one.  Sums up my feelings....

Hugs,
Kat

[Snowflake]

Kat,

Thanks, for your kind words. Sorry to hear you suffer from depression too! It is such alonely place to be.

TAKE CARE
  Winona

[KatNyerHAT]

Winona,

I'm still in denial about the depression.. Constantly tell myself I'm just experiencing a bad day.  Menopause & HepC  sure don't help any.  Only two times in my life I tried to end it.  At 13 and then again on tx.  Thank God he had other plans.

I pray all is well with you.
Hugs,
Kat

[Snowflake]

Kat,

Your right about menopause and HepC not helping with depression. I had a hysterectomy around 79, nothing has been the same for me, only worse. It has been a rollercoaster ride for the most part. I can relate to the early childhood depression also, i had a real tough time. The only thing that saved me was my mom, the thought of the pain that it would cause her. I have never taken anything for it, i have always managed to pull though somehow.
I have been doing well on therapy with my depression, i have gotten down a couple of times. But was fortunate enough to come out of it fairly quickly. I do shot 23 tonight, only one shot left.
Were you able to finish therapy or were you taken off because of the depression??? I pray you are always able to handle what comes your way. Like you said God has a plan for us !!!

TAKE CARE
  Winona

[Snowflake]

The Simple Truth:

(((FROM WHAT WE GET, WE CAN MAKE A LIVING; WHAT WE GIVE, HOWEVER, MAKES A LIFE.)))
                                                                                                        ---Arthur Ashe----

TAKE CARE
  Winona

[KatNyerHAT]

Winona,
So true!!
I just realized that I didn't answer you from a post in July.... I was taken off at 12 because the numbers didn't come down, the inteferon was affecting everything, including the depression and health.  I wish I could have toughed it out but everything was against me...being 1b.
How are you doing now?  Things still under control?  I'm very grateful and give it up to God.  After my CT scan results came back, I feel truly blessed.  The lesions that showed up on MRI are now gone!!  Of course my dr.can't explain it but I know who had a hand it.
Take good care!
Hugs,
Kat

[Hank's mom]

Hi. First the writing - both yours and your grand's, WOW, I hope it was healing to both explore your thoughts and feelings creatively, and your sharing and the feedback as acknowledgement for the rollercoaster you're riding. This ain't for sissies. I hope you are compiling all of this for later. Think how much further your art would travel and how welcome it will be for others struggling down the road. and for you when you get to look back and literally have to read your writing to remember. I never understood when women would tell me I wouldn't remember the pain of childbirth except maybe intellectually, but its true. I thought I'd get split like a mellon, but now its more or less just a story. Anyway, that's number one.
Number 2 is that the writing of these thoughts you're having is or can be an eye opener for friends and family. They don't know, even the most sympathetic can only be that, sympathetic. I am not even sure I can honestly say I understand your pain if I haven't had the same experience, but your writing gives more meaning beyond descriptive, because your troubles lit your creative light. That's very impressive. As you say, you haven't written in years, so you must have had the need which you met in grand form.
I met with my daughter (17) today. I haven't seen her in over a month and that was unpleasant. Needless to say, long story. Anyway, I was explaining my new meds and and changes in side effects. She told me it really bothered her that we never get to see each other and then when we do I talk about my illness. She said it scared her. That's honest and I can deal with that. I explained the reason I wanted to keep her up to date was so she could understand when I can't stray from home because I am having a hard enough time that I worry about getting stranded or that I'm so lethargic that things aren't funny, I'm not joking as usual. Perhaps if I read her some of my writing she would get it on that level. I think I'll try and see if it helps her as it helps me. She's a poet so I think she'll get it on a gut level.
Remember - It can heal even as it hurts. Therapy can be shared. Art is for everyone. Keep up the good work if you can and by all means hold on to those pieces.
momxfive

[Snowflake]

Hello All,

(((((WORK SPARES US FROM THREE EVILS: BOREDOM, VICE AND NEED.)))))
                                                                                   Voltaire


momxfive, Thanks so much for your kind words. I hope you and your daughter can create a better understanding of what you are going though. I know she is scared, but i hope she does read your writing, i think that would be good for her to see it from your point of view. And, what you are dealing with. It's hard on all of us.......

TAKE CARE
  Winona

[Snowflake]

                      ~DON'T QUIT~

WHEN THINGS GO WRONG AS SOMETIMES THEY WILL;
WHEN THE ROAD YOUR TRUDGING SEEMS UP HILL;
WHEN THE FUNDS ARE LOW, AND THE DEBTS ARE HIGH
AND YOU WANT TO SMILE, BUT HAVE TO SIGH;
WHEN CARE IS PRESSING YOU DOWN A BIT-
REST IF YOU MUST, BUT DO NOT QUIT.

SUCESS IS FAILURE TURNED INSIDE OUT;
THE SILVER TINT OF THE CLOUDS OF DOUBT;
AND YOU CAN NEVER TELL HOW CLOSE YOU ARE
IT MAY BE NEAR WHEN IT SEEMS SO FAR;
SO STICK TO THE FIGHT WHEN YOUR HARDEST HIT-
IT'S WHEN THINGS GO WRONG THAT YOU MUST NOT QUIT.
                                                          (UNKNOWN)

[linda]

    those are words to live by....and i think your post is right on time!!!!!   thanks winona!!!!   ~~linda~~