SNOWFLAKES THOUGHTS

[Snowflake]

                 (((THANK YOU ALL FOR YOU KIND WORDS, UNDERSTANDING AND SUPPORT)))

It really means alot to me, i have been in a bad place for some time now. I was able to stay possitive though my second round and reached SVR. Only to find it was lost at my one year post TX tests. This news combined with dealing with my moms health, wore me out both pysically and mentally. As, well, as dealing with my own pain everyday. I have so many issues going on i don't know wheather i am coming or going. I have learned to deal with them most of the time. But after reaching SVR, i had put so much hope into my body getting better. It was a big let down when nothing changed. And, then, to be told the hep was active again sent me into a downward spiral of hopelessness. I am trying to get myself together for my third round. It seems to be much harder this time with all the scares from the hep and TX. But, at least now i can see alittle light in the distance. So, hopefully by the time i see my GI on Feb. the 14th the light will be some brighter. I just don't feel like the same person, i don't know who i am anymore. If i ever did!!! ( ... )

The only thing that keeps me going is my family and the wonderful people here...Thank You for listening...

TAKE CARE
 Winona

[Dude]

Monna, if you ever need a friend, I'm just an email away. Work on your faith, make youself strong by faith first, then follow with all the physical common sense things. Don't stress too much, it will only serve to make your mountain harder to climb. Faith will bring it down to size. You need inner peace, then life will get easier to move through, with a lot less climbing and far less falling down.

I'm keeping you in my prayers day and night, sister.

God bless.

[KatNyerHAT]

Winona, 

These days I rarely venture out over to the creative side of the boards... and today, I decided I'd better take my break, sit quietly, listen and come over and read the writings of the many talents we have here.  I've always enjoyed your writing so much!!!!

Hang in there, dear.  You're one tough lady.  You've done tx twice (more than I can say for myself).  Not certain I could be that brave.. or have so much hope.  Yet when I read that heppers such as yourself keep going, never giving up, even when you feel hopeless, it's not long lasting.. You pick yourself right up and keep on going.  Just know that you are inspiration to so many of us.  There are days where I feel like I don't know who am am any longer, not sure what direction I'm supposed to go.  My appt is on Feb 12th with my G.I. and I'm only hoping that he won't give me false hope and have something tangible in the way of a clinical trial for me.  Last time, I saw him, we went down a list and I'd say, "Is that something I can do?"...and you can only imagine the pain I felt everytime he said, "no, Kat, you're not a good candidate for it."  So, here's hoping that fungus he's hyped up so much will be something I can, in fact, do.

Hang tough, Winona.  I am praying for you.

Many hugs, 
Kat

[Hank's mom]

Hi Winona =

A few days have passed since your last post here. There are so many ups and downs to what we heppers/txers go through. To try and describe it to anyone who hasn't been in our shoes is nearly impossible, but you, once again have done so well. I can tell by your last post that once again you are on the dragon's special roller-coaster. I wish I could give you some promise to help lighten your load at least for a time.

Certainly I wish that for all of us, but for you who I know have really been struggling, I wish for it right now. The good part is you have a great and growing family for support and as a reason to keep on riding. I don't mean to put that as a pressure on you - as there have been times that I know I am only sticking with the game for their sake, while at the same time I don't want them to feel like it is their job to keep me going and should I throw in the towel it will be because they have dropped the ball - but hey, it's nice to have some outside incentive when you lose your own and wonder if it's worth it, the time, the pain, the money, the days when you are unavailable for those same loved ones.

In the meantime, your writing will help ease your mental suffering which can so easily become a stupor if you stifle your creativity.

Be well our darling,
Susie

[Snowflake]

Hello,

It is nice to have a place to come where people are so supportive. I know you are all going though your own struggles as well.

Susie, No pressure taken, it's true we push forward for the sake of our family. I am blessed to have them, they give me a reason to continue on. Added with the caring people like you here when my hopes are dashed...

Kat, Thanks, your sweet... I truely hope something soon comes your way. I can't imagen what you are going though. You sound like one tough lady yourself. Wishing you all the best on your up coming appt. Feb. 12th. I see your liver is in bad shape, i will also keep you in my prayers...

Dude, You have been so kind and your words have touched me. You hit the nail on the head with your observations. I am pleased to call you my friend. Thank you for reaching out to me... I do need to work on my faith, it reached alow there while in darkness.
The old devil takes advantage of you when he can...

TAKE CARE
Winona

[Snowflake]

MY LIFE IS LIKE A VACUUM CLEANER
WHEN IT STOPS SUCKING
IT'S TIME TO CHANGE THE BAG... ... ...    

[19Dragon52]

(((LaLa)))

You are just "Too Cute."

Love.....

[Snowflake]

       WORDS

WORDS CAN BE WEAK
WORDS CAN BE STRONG
IT'S ALL HOW YOU USE THEM
FOR RIGHT OR FOR WRONG
THEY CAN LEAVE SCARES
THAT DO RUN DEEP
OR THEY CAN BUILD YOU UP
TO FEEL LIKE TEN FEET
SO IT IS UP TO YOU
WHICH WILL YOU CHOOSE
DO YOU WANT TO WIN
OR DO YOU WON'T TO LOSE
WINNING CAN BE GREAT
BUT AT WHAT COST
WHEN ALL THE THINGS
YOU CHERISH ARE LOST...

[Snowflake]

[Lee]

Awesome post Snow....so loved it...thank you for sharing!


Blessings always,

Lee

[Betty W.]

Winona, what beautiful words, what talent you have.....I started at the beginning and read all of your poems....beautiffully written and yet true words of pain, I am so sorry for what you and others are going through, I wish that I could take the pain away. I can't but I can remember you in prayer. Continue to write I am sure it helps, just to say how you feel. LOVE and PRAYERS....Betty

[Snowflake]

Health is the soul that animates all the enjoyments of life, which fade and are tasteless without it.
       - William Temple

[Snowflake]

THERE IS ALITTLE BIRD IN MY BACKYARD HE CLAIMS IT AS HIS HOME
HE DARTS AMONG THE GERANIUMS AND HOLLYHOCKS THEY ARE HIS OWN

WHEN HE IS RESTING HE PERCHES IN THE SHADE UNDER THE CORK OAK TREE
WHERE HE PREENS AS HE WATCHES OVER HIS TERITORY WHICH IS KEY

HE LIVES ALONE ALL HIS LIFE ONLY IN SPRING TO VENTURE OUT
TO SEEK FEMALES TO BRING NEW LIFE HE GIVES DISPLAYS AN SHOUTS

LEAVING HER TO BUILD THE NEST AND CARE FOR THE YOUNG
HE RETURNS TO HIS TERRITORY WHERE HIS SOUNDS ARE SUNG

WARNING OTHERS TO STAY OUT HE WILL DEFEND WITHOUT A DOUGHT
HE MAY BE VERY SMALL IN SIZE BUT HIS HEART MAKES HIM STOUT

LOOKING RATHER DRAB WITHOUT THE SUNLIGHT TO SHOW HIS BEAUTY
HE SITS STILL UNTIL TIME TO REPLISH OR DO HIS PROTECTION DUTY

THAT IS WHEN YOU SEE THE BRILLIANT IRIDECSENT PLUMAGE AND SKILL
HE POSSES DARTING FORWARD BACKWARDS HOVERING CATCHING INSECTS TILL

THE DAY IS DONE TIME TO LAPSE INTO A STATE OF TORPOR TO SAVE ENERGY
FOR ANOTHER DAY OF EXCITEMENT AND DISPLAYS OF TALENT AND BEAUTY....

THE ANNA'S HUMMINGBIRD:  

[Hank's mom]

Winona -

I like this piece very much - so in tune with the natural world and finding meaning to meet your spirits' finest qualities. You are graced with a gift that helps you through life's trials and as an art in itself.

Susie

[Lee]

Awesome writing...Susie's response is dead on.  You are so very gifted...such a beautiful writing.

Blessings,

Lee