Severe Depression? HELP...Please!

[Jackie]

Oh Joyce! Your post.........breaks my heart! That is aweful.

I can see from your posts that you are a very strong & determined person. We are here for you whenever you need us. Don't try and do it all without at least releasing some of it.


Hugs

[Jackie]

Willy! I can't get the image out of my head!!! You are way too funny!!

[willy]

Oh land oh Goshen!  That's what I get for leaving for a few hours.  Who ever I have to thank for this did a good job; I think you've captured my attitude, but I'm really a tad better looking that that.....(I hope)...although it would explain my lackluster dating resume.

Were I to guess.......it would have to be someone with a bit of time on his hands and more computer experience than I.......and about a foot of snow on the ground.......am I getting warm?

Sighhhhhhh.....  First HCV .... and now THIS.

Willy

[alley-oops]

Wowwzers Wacky Willy ,
That is tooooo funny.  Clever, clever, clever....

Hi Joyce darling,
I am so glad you  had a better day today!!!
I'm not too familiar with your medical system down there, ( I'm in Canada) but I would hope that your Dr.s would have your best interest in mind when making desicions about fixing up your meds. I hope you can get that figured out soon. I am sorry for your sorrows.   You are (as Jackie pointed out) very, very strong!!! I am so glad you are here.
Alley

[19Dragon52]

Alley,

You know the familiar adage: God didn't bring me this far to dump me.

You Have A Wonderful Day!  
The Sun Is Shining Here In So. CA...

[Patti]

Joyce,
You have taught me something already. I don't have it too bad! It really saddens me to hear what you are going through with your family. I am glad to hear that you had a better day. Keep smiling

p.s. Please I beg whomever posted that picture of (weird & wacky) Willy just to fess up so it will be taken off.

[Penney]

Hi Joyce.  

I just wanted to pass along my support and lend an ear for whenever and for whatever.  

This board is full of people who need phsych meds...they just don't know it yet!  Sorry...my voices made me say that.....

Seriously though......my prayers are with you and it doesn't matter who you are...if you find out you have a potentially deadly disease, it can make any person extremely depressed just to hear the news!  I certainly didn't sprint down the block and throw a party........I cried.  And then I cried some more.....

Keep Keepin' on!
smile....  
Penney

[Susieque]

Hi Joyce - got your message and read all the posts about depression and some of the medical facts of your family members.  That alone would be enough to cause depression in even the strongest person.

When I was diagnosed, I was confused - had not led a "fun" lifestyle, no alcohol, no drug history - doctors are even uncertain just how I got it - but I have it and it had progressed into cirrohosis!!!  I suppose you could say I had a day or so feeling sorry for myself, then decided to put it all in a neat little package and hand it over to God telling him to take care of it - I had neither the time nor patience to deal with it.  I am a firm believer in that - it has always worked for me!  Here I am, diagnosed in April, started tx in June and found out last Friday I am now undetectable!  You can imagine who I am giving the praise to.  I have to finish these next 8 weeks- then possibly I will be home free for a while.  Has the tx been rough?  Most definitely - have had every side effect you can imagine and it has been a tough journey.  I will tell you to keep posting here - these guys practically saved my sanity --people like Penney, Willy, Jackie, Ally and the rest have more or less held my hand through some of the worse times.  They share it all and hold nothing in check - I pray blessings on them every night hoping we will all come through this together.  

Smile - life is good, we are just going down a bumpy road right now but the paving crew is just up ahead and will smooth it all out.
Susie

[19Dragon52]

Susieque,

Thanks for your response.  I belong to enough 12 step programs that you'd think that to, "Let go and let God" would be the easiest and most natural response.  It's my "MO" to give it to God and then snatch it back.  Something I really need to pray & meditate about.  My father always told me from the time I was young that I take things too seriously and need to learn how to let some of it roll off my back.

I have been diagnosed since last Oct. but have never had TX nor am I likely to since I'm bi-polar.  I just take it a step at a time to treat my Liver the best I can.  Right now I'm working with nutrition and healthy supplements.  My next big step is to throw away the cigarettes.  Of course I love to smoke but I think I may love living longer!  All of my paternal family has passed due to Cancer!

You sure got a bad break...having this virus and not knowing how you contracted it.  My maternal aunt experienced the same thing.  It was really sad.  She couldn't take TX either so eventually she was given blood transfusions.

With this family on board and my family at church I'm sure I'll do fine.  And like I said before, God didn't bring me this far to just drop me.

Hanging In There....

[willy]

Hi All.  I've been laying low; hiding out working 12 hour days and haven't posted much lately.  It's wonderful to see that everythings keeps moving no matter what any one of us does.  

Joyce, wow! This thread had gotten a lot of replies.  It's been a good way to meet everybody.  I'm always mindful of how good things can come out of bad things.  I'm re-watching a film; "Mr Jones" that I saw a few years back and enjoying again; the subject being a person (Richard Gere) fighting with his case of manic depressive disorder.  Fortunately, he gets to be treated by an ACE psychologist (Lena Olin) who, of course also falls in love with him.  I'm thinking.....yeah; THAT could happen (if we're Richard Gere!)!   In spite of the movie being pure hollywood the subject still held my interest.  I will close by asking you what is the difference between manic depressive And bi-polar?   Also for your AMUSEMENT the first time I heard the word was when a fellow told me he was bi-polar....I confused it with bi coastal because he traveled a lot!  

Susieque!!  Wow! What a WONDERFUL compliment!   Not to repeat what I just said but IT has been a WONDERFUL thing for me to find the many people here at this bulletin board.   It has helped me tons too.  We come here to be helped and end up helping our other brothers and sisters.  And as soon as one of us is off bein busy someone else picks up the ball and continues to dribble.  

What a perfect metaphor to end my paragraph with!

Glad you are all here.

Willy

[lbkathi]

 Hi Joyce,
  Come here and let me give you a Hug.

 (((((((((((((((((((( Joyce )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))


Hi Willy
   Your not only funny but bright too! Your quite an asset to the board.

I wish you both (n everyone else) the best of days

Kathi

[lazarus1]

Yeah Willy.

When your`e not here I continue to dribble.


Laz...

[19Dragon52]

Willy,

Sorry I didn't get right back to you on your question.  My screen froze and it was late so I called it a day.  Then yesterday I had my evaluation with my new counselor.  It turns out she has been very involved with starting support groups in our area for Hep C patients.  She also knows of my gastro-doctor and told me if she had Hep C or any liver problems that would be the doctor she would want taking care of her......VERY COOL!

It turns out I am experiencing manic & depression at the same time.  NOT VERY COOL!  A double whammy but life goes on.  My counselor is going to see me once a week on my "Psych's" request to hopefully keep me out of the hospital.

Manic-depression is classified as a "Psychotic Disorder."  Bi-polar is two mutually repellant forces.  That is the nature of manic-depression so therefore it is also referred to as "bi-polar."  I hope this explains it for you.  With me experiencing both at the same time right now, you have a meeting or intersection of the two opposites.

Yes, I did get a lot of responses and I want you all to really understand how grateful I am.

Kathi....That was the most wonderful healing hug!  Thanks!

I'm here for anyone...anytime.