just want to share

[pete c]

  Hey there friends & my family heppers.

     I,am not one for creative writing let alone spelling. Yet have you just had that feeling you had to share some thing,that what i have now .

      In 2006 i found out that i had hep c and was going nuts with doubt and fear,Being a recovering alcoholic i went looking for the AA web site.  And saw this site listed , so this is where i end up. I thank God today for this site and the people who have reach out a helping hand and understanding heart.
 Because of the people here and this site  I have found hope  and the strength to keep on doing the next right thing.

 That meant doing tx   my first few months were not easy ones with trying to work in a factory  and in the heat and yet when i came here on this site and was being a  cry baby  folks here told to just hang in there you can do this.

  Well  as of last night fri the23d of jan i did my 31 st shot,wow the first shot seems so long ago now. The sides have been manageable for me since shot 12 in fact very few sides to speak of.

Doing tx has been a adventure for sure yet one that can be done  just ask around of those who have done this, Some have had it rough and some have had not so rough yet I believe that by hanging with the winners  here at this site and for me believeing in God and praying when i thought i could,t go on another shot  i found a strength inside of me  i never knew was there.

So if your new or just checking things out here, let me share this with you  there is hope and most of all believe that your worth it.
some time life does,t seem fair  yet life is what it is and we can get through what ever comes down the path of life for us,a day at a time.

I want to end with saying thanks to all those who have gone before me and give so freely of them self, those that have the knowlege of share new information on this , and those who have reach out a helping hand and careing heart,for it has meant alot too this hepper,I,am so looking forward to meeting those going to Nc this yr.We can fienaly meet the family  i have come to love and  care about . well thanks for letting me ramble May God Bless you and keep you strong in your own journey if things get to much all you got to do is reach out someone will help you.

 Back again my friend as of 4-24-09  I did  shot 44, I have only been able to do what had to be done with the Grace of God and all of you here.  Through all this journey of TX  i have come to learn things about my own self,by listening to those who have gone befor me, for this I ,am greatful for all . Even though the treatment is drawing to a close ,The lessions well last a life time,

For those who are just begin this  let me say that  I know in my heart you are worth it,so no matter what face,s you  just keep in mind that others have gone befor you,and are here for you now. No matter what the final out come will be  I know in my heart it has all been well worth it, The friends  I have made here  is with out compare.
May you always fine the strength you need to do the next right thing.

                                                                             pete
                                              

[Hank's mom]

Pete -
Ramble on Sweetheart! I can't believe how long ago it was that you kept hitting the wall with your diagnosis, getting your meds, the whole thing! Boy, you really wanted to do this! (if I recall right) And now 31 under the belt - ug, literally.

Don't think for a minute anyone here feels differently about you - you have brought your kindness, quirky humor and friendship here , improving the site for all of us.

Susie

[Lee]

Mr. Pete....all the best writers always write from the heart...it is a special gift....a gift you have which shows in all you do...your kind and loving spirit has enhanced all our lives....you are the essence of a soul that pays it forward in your kindness and caring...and your faith in a higher power that reflects in each word and deed....thank you for putting into words all the things many of us feel.

Blessings and love,

Lee

[robin]

Awww...Pete, I want to come and give you big old hugs and tell you what an inspiration you are to those that are following you in the treatment "playground". You have been such an inspiration to all of us. I can remember when you were getting lost going to Pittsburg you turned it into an adventure with humor. Even the hardest of times for you were met with a good nature and positive mentality and now you are seriously on the downhill run of this "adventure" called treatment. I sit here in AWE of you my friend. Much love to you and keep your spirits high (you help keep mine high)...robin

[pete c]

  As i have journeyd down the road of tx ,at first full of fear and confuseion.
 
  Thinking  to myself  is this what i really want to do,start this journey ? as i met other travelers on this road of life they all told me that it is a means to a end. End of being consume by this monster calld Hep C.Those that have gone befor me and have stay here to offer support and guidence,as well as hope & understanding thank you.

 The night of my first shot was very scary to me for many reasons, So befor that shot  i got on my knees and ask God to give me the strength to do the next right thing, which was to start this journey.

  During this time  when thigs got to a point  that i thought i could not go on It seem like those were the times that God pick me up and carried me  over those rough spots. By useing the friends  i have made here at this site.

 Some once said to me that  by keeping my eye on the goal and not the journey  it would help me. I have found this to so true today.

   So from the first shot to the 40th shot it has been full of ups & downs  some easy and some not so easy  yet though Gods mercy  he has not put me where id Grace wont protect me,has given me the strength that i never knew i had in side of me,by those  that have shared this journey with me.

   There are so many things i have learn by doing this not only about myself but others as well that it,s okto be  human , that what i can not do alone  i can do with the help of my friends,And Gods Grace.

  The time in my life that my head was full of fear and my heart was heavy it was my friends that were there to lean a helping hand, a kind word or  a cyber hug.

    So to end this  I just want to say that life is what it is  and acceptance is the key  to many questions ,humor  is that one thing  that makes it all doable.  So Dear God  please help those that are going down this road as you have help so many other ,by let us share our own experience  strength and hope with each other.Just for today  we can get through this.

                                                                          Pete
                                                                                         
                                                                                           

[Lee]

Mr. Pete...as always a light in the darkness for so many....each word you wrote speaks volumes of truth...you are such a blessing to so many....I am so blessed to have been on the receiving side when I was going through the most difficult of times, your kind words and wonderful humor saw me though...as with so many here...you are a very special man.

Blessings and love,

Lee

[pete c]

   Hello  family & friends

   Not to be a ego manic  I just reread this post and wow I just want to add this to the first post.

   The journey was real and it was,nt real fun, I,am not going to lie to anyone and say it was a bowl of cherries, yet  a day at atime we did what i thought i could not have done , Came along way from keeping my eyes shut on the 1st shot  to a point when all i could do was thank God itwas just about done.

      Today i have some sides and one really big belly  everyone else loose weight i gain it MOOOO . Thanks to all of you woderful folks  for giveing so freely of yourselfs.  And may the ones who are reading this trying figure out what to do  please let me say what my doctor said to me  do you think your want to try  , and i can say today that i,am greatful that i did  As of 48 wk mark  i was still undi
Soon my 6 mo check up . The box sazs shut up pete 

    May God guide you in own journey and give the strength to do the next right thing  to help you get through  your own jorney.

                                                                                   pete

                                                       

[Hank's mom]

Pete -
You always have a way of puling all of us out of the doldrums - even when you felt awful and may have felt you were on eternal ride.

You may not realize this, but you have a unique way of offering understanding and making us smile.

Yup, you hit the nail right on the head - Pete is a very special man.

Susie

PS - I have lost the weight I wanted to, 125-130, back to 115. I was 104 when I started, but must have been a tad scrawny, this does feel better, though the hepper tummy is here for awhile - can't do belly exercises to tighten up the midsection - they seem to press too much on the organs that demand - DO NOT TOUCH HERE - UNDER PENALTY OF PAIN!  I'm blaming the Lactulose.

Your friend always, Susie